I've thought about it back in my hs days because I dealt with alot of anxiety and worried obsessively and I didn't know how to handle it... but I'm better now. I've never made any kind of plan to actually do it though... thank goodness.
I did when my first serious relationship ended. It took me a full 7 - 8 months to snap out of it. What kept me going was the thought of friends and family. I now know that it's not worth it to cry over a girl.
I don't know why this is on healthkicker. But anyway...I tried to commit suicide. I took an entire bottle of sleeping pills. Obviously it did not work. The doctors were amazed that amount did not kill me, but here I sit.
I still consider trying again,but I worry about who would care for my kids. So, for now I am staying for them, but don't know how long I can live for someone else.
... Honestly, over four times. Twice got me to the 'psych' ward. I'm glad I failed. Life is worth living for. If it wasn't for those falls and trips we had, we wouldn't have those springs and joys to live for. I'm going to be an 'Auntie' :P and I am happy :)
jk but I think almost everyone has thoughts about "what if I wasn't here and how would that get people to notice me..." Isn't that what suicide is mainly about? Trying to get some attention? I think it was for me. It's supposed to bring one away from pain and bring others pain. But it's just painful for everyone.
I'm pretty sure everybody has thought about it at least once in their life, especially after traumatic physical/emotional experiences or living with a very hard condition (i.e.: great illness...) However to have those thoughts and actually attempting it are at 2 different levels. I just wished some of these people could get the help (people listening to their concerns) before they resort to that fatal solutions to end their problems or misery. Recent example: Lucy Gordon, who was found hanged in an apparent suicide last week ... Some people might not understand why she did it since she was a super gorgeous woman and she was starting to get some fame for her acting roles and modeling career... Unfortunately, they don't see the other side of the story (I assume her personal issues) which caused this unfortunate tragedy ...
Yeah... but it's not like I was sitting there with a weapon of my choice. I was just honestly contemplating about it - what the consequences would be, how long the pain would last... But I would never go through with it.
I tried more than a few times, and have thought about it more times than I could possibly count.
I'm glad it didn't work.
I also lost a close friend of mine to suicide in December 2007. It's a reason why I don't let thinking about it take over my mind like I used to, and I also do my best to prevent more people from doing so.
But I thought about the impact it would have on my family and friends, so I decided it would be better to just deal with everything, no matter how horrible it got. I knew that everything would get better and I would regret doing it for the rest of my life if I had tried and failed.
I always think about doing it, but somehow I'm very persuasive...
I did once. It was after a breakup, I didn't like the way we just went our separate ways even after two years of being together. I got through it by my friends and family helping me through the breakup. Thought about how I have so many more opportunities out there, I shouldn't end it just because of one relationship.
the psych ward used to be my friend. but i'm living for me, for my future, for my family. no one, and nothing, is worth my life, or yours. i had issues, have issues, but i'm dealing with them. one life to live. live it to the fullest. and i'm not embarrassed of my scars, they're part of me. i wouldn't get rid of a part of me. ever.
Twice very seriously. I called for help the first time and was found the second time. ICU in a coma for 3 days. I shouldn't be alive and I'm still not thrilled about that. And of course it's selfish-- it's just as selfish for me to want to stop suffering and kill myself as it is for anyone else to want me to continue suffering.... That's just my opinion.