I don't really know how to preface this. I guess I should start off by saying that
Smichy420 is a super awesome person, really clever and funny (if you haven't read her
Random Thoughts of the Day blog - go do it, it's hilarious and deserves a read all the way through).
This lady is seriously beautiful, through and through. And to be perfectly honest, I'm jealous of her. She has a strength that I don't think I will ever be able to parallel in my entire life. You see - she's currently living with a death sentence. Smichy420 has AIDS.
This interview is about that.
One last thing before we get started: I don't think I should have to warn you about this, because you're all supposedly adults here (or close to it) - but any jokes, nastiness, or just plain stupidity in the comments will be deleted. Period.
The Interview:
1. When and how did you find out you had AIDS? I found out a little over a year ago. It was hell, I had HIV and did not treat it like I should have, eventually it progressed into AIDS.2. Do you know how you were infected? If so, will you explain in detail?I had gone to a party with a "friend", I ended up having a lot to drink and was heavily involved with drugs at the time. I had sex with this guy I barely knew thus I received HIV.3. How do you usually let people know about your illness?At first I kept it kind of secretive, I had really only told my best friend at the time everything that was going on with the illness. I had lied to a lot of people on how I got it, I was very embarrassed and disgusted with myself.4. How do people usually react when they learn that you have AIDS? Has anyone ever treated you really terribly somehow because of your illness? (If so, will you explain in detail?)
Usually they feel sorry for me. I did it to myself though, so they shouldn't. I had a friend who took care of me for awhile when I first found out, without that I would have probably snapped from being so unstable. But, there was one person who harassed and tormented me about it for awhile, I couldn't explain it if I wanted to, he was just the biggest asshole you could imagine.5. Have you been able to date at all? If so, can you describe your dating experiences? (Especially in regards to the people in question learning about your illness.)I don't date. I tried a couple times. It just won't work. Not many guys want to be with someone who has AIDS, ya know?6. Do you have a significant other? If so, describe them? If not, are you concerned about having someone love you, getting married, having a family, etc?I do not. It sucks sometimes, but it is what it is. I used to get upset because I thought no one would ever love me or want to be with me. I would never be able to have children or a family. It tore me up a lot, I think I'm just numb to it now, I have so much more to worry about.7. What is your opinion on the Pope's view that condoms help the spread of AIDS (and that abstinence is the only answer)?I believe abstinence is the only answer to prevent it. But, if you must have sex then please use a condom, get checked together with your partner also. In the end it's just not worth the pain.8. If you had the opportunity to teach sex education to younger people, what would be the number one thing you would tell your students?I would tell them to keep their pants on. That probably wouldn't work so I would show them the effects it has on the body. Not just physically, but mentally.9. Anything else you'd like to add?.Yes, be careful. I know it's fun to have sex, I know that it's something a lot of people do, but just be careful, take precautions, do your research, and most of all get checked, and if you are infected don't you dare have sex with someone without letting them know you're infected.
Comments (15)
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thank you for posting this. as sad as it is, I know so many people that don't care about HIV/AIDS b/c HIV can be treated and people can live longer lives. they just don't get it.
you are beautiful and someone should love you
<3 thank you wonderful post!
*hugs* aww... :( Thank you for posting this!
Oh, and by the by, you cannot make me NOT feel sorry for you. Bad things do happen to good people.
I wish you well,
Ash
@unboyfriendable@xanga - I would have recommended the same thing.
Huge hugs, though!
Thanx for this post...I dont have any words to the person thats getting interviewed but i do know u are a strong person and ur taken this very welll. ::big hugs to u::
Sorry to hear this. *huggggsss**
Thats must be hard. xx
Anyhow, like you said Aids is a death sentence but how big of a sentence is it?
How is it different from HIV(effects, symptoms...)?
What are the physical effects Aids has on you?
And do you have to take medication?
Does it effect many peoples career choices?
I wish this would have had more information, I really would like to learn about it because I don't know anyone with AIDS and I only know that its horrible to deal with. And I like that you admit you brought it on yourself. Glad you aren't playing victim or anything, though I despise the folks who don't let it be known that they have the disease.
You are one of the most amazing people I have ever read. I wish I could meet you, and hug you. I'm almost in tears.
@unboyfriendable@xanga -
A caution about this - just because two people both have AIDS doesn't mean it can't get worse if they decide to engage in sex. There are different strains of the HIV virus, so if you catch another strain... it gets worse.
@Coffee_Kaioken@xanga -
Certainly. I was referring to it being easier for 2 infected individuals to DATE since they wouldn't be as concerned about the "stigma" of the virus...that tarnished label we kinda put on those who have the virus versus those who don't. I would never advise the bumping of uglies with any and everyone just because you have AIDS. There are still other STDs AND unwanted pregnancies to think about. OF COURSE, protection and good judgment is still a must! Also, I'm sure doctors inform patients of the variety of strains and the special precautions that need to be taken during intercourse at some time during the course of their treatment. Or at least I hope so. I appreciate your caveat though. Someone could have very well interpreted my suggestion that way and run amok.
@unboyfriendable@xanga - Well I didn't mean any underhanded comments by what I was saying. I'm sure you mean well and all. And I assume you also know about some people who have AIDS or any other STD and rather than just live with it, they also try and drag others down with them. Like one guy who lied about his status with it to get this woman to sleep with him, then turned around later and confessed. People like that are charged with murder, and in a way, it is murdering someone - you sentence them to a life filled with this sickness, as Serena put it.
@Coffee_Kaioken@xanga -
I was aware of that, and I agree. I think it's murder as well.