Friday, 07 October 2011
I know you know I struggle with depression. I know you are often confused and frustrated by it. I know you love me.
What I don’t think you know is how much I love your patience.
People who don’t have a background with mental illness can have a hard time dealing with a friend who struggles. They can’t understand why they can’t just turn things around, quit the negative thinking, stop their crying, and just be okay. They become frustrated.
But you, my friends, have always taken great patience and care when I’m down. When I’m calling because I can’t be alone with what I’m thinking, with what I’m feeling.
And you do get frustrated. You tell me. You say you don’t know what to say, that you wish it could change, that you just want me to be happy.
But the important thing is you stay with me. You get frustrated but you stay. And you are patient. You are patient with your frustration, with my frustration, with the whole mess.
And I love you for it. So I wanted to take a moment and thank you, from the bottom of my troubled heart, thank you for always trying.
As someone with a mental illness, on behalf of all who struggle, thank you. Thank you for staying.