When I got home from my trip on Monday night and went to the bar to sing karaoke, I got a hangover from two beers. I normally have a ridiculous tolerance for alcohol, so this was surprising. What's even more surprising is, of the few times I've been hung over, this one was the absolute worst. Needless to say, I haven't had a drink since that night.
I've been thinking the past couple of days and I've come to the realization that my drinking while at home has become more of a ritual or part of my day, rather than drinking for enjoyment. I've slowly lost my taste for beer, and I've noticed that because my beer reviews have been getting progressively worse. It just took me until now to realize that fact.
I know I can say no to alcohol because I have to do so when I'm at work. Drinking on my job is a one-way ticket to getting fired, and even worse, having your license revoked permanently. It's just something I do at home or when I don't have to work, so I know I can in fact control my drinking. I just choose not to, for some reason.
I've also noticed I've slept better the past two nights than I have in years. I don't feel as tired during the day as a result. I can run for longer in the morning, I can bowl more games in one setting, I can work out more vigorously. My heart hasn't fluttered at all. I no longer have stomach cramps. Granted, I've not felt my best the past couple of days (and who knows, maybe it's withdrawal/detox), but I know I'll come out of it with a new body, just like I did when I made the commitment to the raw vegan diet. On top of that, I've cut out a lot of empty calories those two days from not having my standard 2 beers.
I guess I've realized that I don't want to drink anymore. I don't want this for myself. It's really lost its appeal. The taste doesn't really appeal to me anymore, neither do the effects. I'm done with this. Alcohol has caused me to do some really stupid stuff in the past, when I would drink excessively to numb up or something. A lot of that stuff I'm not proud of. Lucky for me, I'm still young so it hasn't damaged my health too much at this point, and maybe some of what has been done can be reversed. Not to mention thinking about how much more money I'll have to spend on stuff that'll give me a lot more enjoyment for a lot longer. Bowling equipment, music, among other things.
Just, no more of this. I'm done drinking, for good.
What are your thoughts on drinking? How often do you drink? Could you give up drinking alcohol as easily?