Sunday, 26 February 2012
Obviously, there are healthy ways and unhealthy ways to lose weight. Sometimes, the unhealthy ways seem more appealing, and sometimes, we do unhealthy healthy things in healthy weight loss plans to try to increase our weight loss.
The thing you have to remember, is that we are doing this to be healthy. If slower weight loss is healthier weight loss, then that's what your body needs. Trust me, I know it's tempting to go a few days without eating, because you know that you could drop 5 pounds really quickly, but that's not healthy- and it's borderline anorexia.
With my schedule, to be perfectly honest, sometimes I forget to eat. To be more honest, sometimes, I know I haven't eaten, and I know that I need to stop to eat, but I don't. According to my blood test, my blood sugar was low. I have not confirmed that it was anything more than a one time ordeal, but I would bet that it's usually like that. I get shaky and nauseous if I don't eat.
So yesterday sucked ass, and I somehow managed to make it until 2 a.m. before I felt sick enough that I had to eat. Usually, if I make it until after dark before I realize I haven't eaten, then I'll try not to eat anything. At that point, my head is saying, "it's bad to eat right before you go to bed." I've got to get better about that. I ended up eating 2 eggs at 2 in the morning so my stomach would settle enough for me to sleep.
Let me clarify that I do not believe that slow weight loss is always healthier. Obviously, my weight loss has not been slow, but I have said this before, and I will say it again: For me- I needed to drop a lot of weight fast. I weighed 270lbs at 21 years old, and I had to do SOMETHING. Also, I truly believe that HCG is a perfectly healthy weight loss plan for anyone who needs to lose more than 20lbs. I am not a scientist, or a doctor, so I'm not going to try to explain how it works on here, but I can assure you that I did my research before I made this decision.
Here is my concern:
I have seen so many women on Xanga who are obviously doing very dangerous things to their bodies.
I have seen where they try to eat zero calories, and I have seen where they talk about having to purge.
I have seen starting weights of 110lbs and goal weights of 90lbs.
It seems obvious to me that these women are doing this for their appearance, and not their health. That is so sad to me. I do not mean this to sound cocky, but I have always considered myself a pretty woman. I look like my mother, and even when I was 270lbs, I saw our similarities in the mirror, and I was never very concerned about the appearance aspect of my weight. I'm not saying that I didn't have hard times in school, or even as an adult, but they were never bad enough for me that I sought bulimia or anorexia as a solution, and honestly, I am still worried that I won't be attractive as a skinny person.
For me, as of today: 276.4lbs. One year and two months later.
Oh---- For all of you women trying to lose weight who actually NEED to lose weight- I am very proud of each of you for making the decision to take control of your life back. Let me know if you EVER need anything.